Daughter

Dear Desiree',

Sometimes I think back in time and wonder... What if......
Back to when you were brand new, and your father was alive.
I remember having the time, to play hide and seek, to tickle, to laugh
On paper, in my heart and mind.............. I knew then you'd always be mine.

I was 17 and thought I knew nothing at the time, but there is one thing I neglected to see....
I was standing on my own, holding you in my arms. Proving to the world, and the statistics
that I would never let us turn out, what they expected for us to be.

Was it Courage, strength or pride? One will never know
Or was it something as simple as a mothers love?
In my heart I knew I had to build a better life, I took each step one by one
I never knew that I was headed the right way, all I knew is that you were by my side.

There came a time in our existence, when I feel that I let you down
I worked so hard, sacrificed so much, I pushed myself harder and harder always wanting more...
I neglected to turn around, and see how far Ive come, to see where We were before.
I saw you in the distance............ It was never too late to go back.
My attention divided so many ways, I felt I'd forgotten the one who brightened my days

We came to an understanding you and I, Mother and daughter together we softly cried.

Our strength and courage to go on............ tested.......
....God knew that without you I too would have died.
A true gift from an unknown source, bringing us back to where we
should be............

I held you, nourished you, I gladly gave all I had to you, every once of my courage and strength,
I was drained of my own self, as you learned to walk again...
I'm so proud of you.. more than Ive even been.

I wont discuss my hardships, It was not on your shoulder to bear,
but yet you took my hand, and led me out of despair.............
I cried in your arms often, A daughters love so true,
softly reminding me what I have accomplished...
And believing in me, joining together as a team,
accomplishing what we need to do.

You are a rock Desiree, truly a fantastic miracle to behold.
On your own you have spoken of your love for me unbroken.
16 and way ahead of your time, you have learned many things from me.
We both look back in time......and we no longer cry.

I used to think it was sunshine, our goal and what we were headed for,
our pursuit in life..............
When all along the answer was found in the darkness, one single star shining bright.
The star of your father has been there all this time........
........... Our courage, strength and pride deep within our hearts
and souls................... an everlasting gift,
the day your father died.

I love you,
Mom.... Agentsg