Reality

You know how everyone has that one thing their good at?
well not me, I'm not the best at anything.
only a hand full of people know what its like, going through everyday as 'the sidekick'.
living in the shadows of my friends, my family, everyone.
I'm quiet, ugly, and not that smart.
do you think anyone could love someone like me?
no.
looking around, everyone has someone who loves them.
everyone has something to look forward to everyday.
all i have to look forward to is the same pain, seeing someone i love, in love with someone else.
nothing ever gets better.
i hope and pray, but everyday is the same. every day is misery, pain, hurt.
i try to look on the bright side,
but guess what, there is none.
seeing everyone else happy, just makes it all worse.
why me?
why do i have to be the ugly one?
why do i have to be the shy one?
why do i have to be the only one without a boyfriend?
why does everything bad happen to me?
theres only a handful of people like me, and the only, i mean ONLY thing that makes me feel better is knowing that somewhere out there, someone is feeling pain like i do, someone knows what its like to have everyone pushing you down. no one cares. you feel like if you were to just disappear, no one would notice. if i died, how many people would come to my funeral?
theres so many questions, but all mine have the same answer,
no.
will i be happy? no.
will someone ever love me? no.
will i ever like myself? no.
will life get better? no.
after a while being rejected turns from tears, to reality.
this is my life,
it won't get better,
nothings gonna change,
nothings gonna be okay.

~if u feel the same way, please comment, i need to know I'm not the only one~