My decietful past...

Once i was afraid of love
love was afraid of me
i was a heartless loser
loving was never for me

faces were pulled
names were called
i was a no soul loner
my heart was walled

you brushed passed me
tickled my shoulder
then the wall was smashed
by your hearts boulder

looking for you constantly
searching for that stare
another evil look though
i just couldnt bare

i swore id end up with you
i promised my soul and heart
knew you\'d be my boyfriend
from the very start

my image i changed
for better not worse
my life i rearranged
stuck in loves curse

he couldnt escape me now
my daring look
and the pretty face
his stare would be stuck

i got that one look
the one id waited for so long
my heart seemed to stop
my head filled with bird song

he spoke to me
i couldnt speak back
he was being forward
cutting me no slack

from then on when i saw him
i always smiled
he always smiled back
love had triumphed

i started hanging out with him
every day and night
trying to conceal my love
my heart trying to fight

that glorious day came
the day i became unfree
the six words he said
\"will you go out with me\"

i replied with a \"yes\"
a smile on my face
my feelings that day
i never can replace

time went on
and we were still together
still holding hands
still going strong

until one day he decided to leave
made me upset
made me decieve
what love really was?

i found out the truth
what had made him bend
he had another girl
who he saw every weekend

my heart had broken
sliced and diced
shatterd and torn
never to suffice

he created a hole
which i never thought could heal
i swore id never love again
i had a heart of steel

i met someone else
who made me feel good
in what i was and who i was
but feelings didnt flood

one day you put your arm around me
i forgot what gentle felt like
you told me it\'d be ok
and said you were here for me

i felt like i was loved
and the feeling was great
i was hiding loving feelings
for you; which made me in a worse state

days then passed
you were the one thing on my mind
i dreamt of loving you
the love i couldnt find

it happened all of a sudden
the blood rushed round my vein
butterflys in my stomach
my ex lovers thoughts drained

we were then together
happy as can be
from now until forever
baby you and me

together we are still
true love takes its turn
stop running round in circles
and you too will have your turn

by sarah - please comment and rate my poem as i like to know what you all think....thankyou
its pretty long but it has a lot of meaning to me