Don't know the title yet, not quite finished

I sit here, holding my heart in my hands
Each minute slowly crawls
Time won't see to pass me by
so I count each tear that falls

One tear for a lover lost
For every false promise that I make
One tear for knowing I proved him right
that I'm just a big mistake

Two tears for lying to myself
Pretending that I’m okay
Two tears for my wishful thinking
That this will all just go away

Three tears for loving someone else
What is wrong with me
Three tears for letting it go too far

Four tears for allowing myself to change
For letting the wrong part of me melt
Four tears for being so heartless
Never caring how you felt