I start

I start with pain....with no end in sight
sometimes i wonder why i continue to fight
i feel scared and helpless
too many twists
turns
i feel the hate, as it begins to burn
love and compassion drifts away from me
my minds thoughts continue to drive me crazy

i still have pain with no end in sight
everyone remembers when im wrong,
no one remembers when im right
i play a song
to gain peace within me
thinking id never live past the age of 23
i search the world around
no one that can accept me has been found
i feel alone
drifting from place to place with no real home

i cry tears of pain with no end in sight
not knowing if ill be alright
i give my heart my all to you
i question if real love is true
thinking of death as my only way out
wanting to see what the afterlife is all about
too many ways with no end in sight
would it be right to end my life
or should i continue to fight.........