Why doesn't he know

I just wished he knew
everytime I see him my stomach hurts, my eyes go hazy, my knees lock, my ankles feel weak, I get chill bumps, my breath stops! When I am with other guys, he is always on my mind. I can't stop thinking about him, he takes up so much if my time, but he doesn't know. He doesn't have the feelings I do. He doesn't really see me. I just help him pass history! Oh, but I wished he knew. Love is such a small word, but it posseses such a big meaning. He is my crush for a decade, and still doesn't know. How could I hide these feelings? Why must I bury them so low? I won't be accepted by him. I expected that, after all. Because I don't have the prettiest face for him to look at and I don't have the skinniest waist for him to hold. But I love him. Without him, my heart isn't whole! It is so much more than a crush. Sometimes I wished it was just made up lust. I really love him, I just wished he knew!