Nightmare

Release me to the dark Gray sky and let me fall to the ground...
. I whisper to you with the faintest moans of discontent... do you not understand? do you not hear my cry? please to let me live.. I'm willing to die. I want to be there with you.... since you left me so long ago.... just 6 feet of earth separate us and I'm beginning to grow tired... old... and sick of all the poisons that fill my mind. YOU say you have that for me.. yet you dangle it in front of me teasing me with everything you have..... as I reach out for it.... asking for it.. wanting it.. .NEEDING it.... and yet when the fog clears and I see your rugged face raise from the grave, I see you there .. smiling..... laughing in the face of your love. What has happened? Cold death must have frozen and shattered your once pure and beautiful hart.... my sight is dimming now... its beginning to get colder.... your body Caressing mine as I feel my blood leave my body..... it is not death that is consuming me..... its you..... every bit of it.. the one I love...... the one I turned to...... the one Ive now BECOME.... help me.... I'm so lost.... Ive now gone under with you.... but I didn't know the weight of the world could play such a heavy burden even after your gone... who would have known.... there has to be some sort of crimson saturation left somewhere beneath me.... I cant find it... I need a source of life.. I need to be FREED... released.... but not FORGOTTEN, FORSAKEN, FOR you.... I lay this rose down.... I'm up from my nightmare... people say you can live your dreams... but who ever said you couldn't live a nightmare.