Dear Stella

Dear Stella,
How are you doing my dear?
Hasn't been the same without you here...
My birthday is coming up in a week or two
And it's never been the same without you
I still wait for the hot pink envelope
With your card in it that helped me cope
Your shaky handwriting saying "i love you"
To read it, its the only thing i want to do
This whole entire family is falling apart
And I'm having troubles now with my heart
I don't tell anyone how much pain i get
I think you know what i mean i bet
I still wish to see your suitcase on the dining room chair
I sometimes believe to see you standing there
I can hear you in the night-time whisper to me
That things will be OK eventually
But how can things be OK
When you're gone and i have to stay?
How can i live without my life?
I don't know how I'm managing to get through every night
I kneel at your tombstone with a flower in my hand
This place is getting too tough for me to stand
I miss you so much, i could cry for days
I love you endlessly, it's no ending phase
I would give so much just to have you by my side!
I need you here so i don't have to hide...

I miss you Stella, in ways you can only feel
I wake up still and tell myself "this isn't real"
I still see you lying in the white hospital bed!
I still see this image in my head!
I can see the straight line echoing out that famous beep
I can still feel the pain in my heart that cuts so deep!
I can remember the words "Stella died last night"
What was there that made you lose your fight!?!?!
Why did God take you and leave me here!
Why couldn't he leave you while you were near?
Tell me, does this pain EVER go away?
or will this heartache be here to stay...