Times up

I look in the mirror and pick up a knife,
Am I that desperate to ending my life?
Slit my wrist and watch the blood role down,
Cover my ears to that horrible sound,
Sounds of my screaming hurt my ears,
Feels likes remembering all the bad times through the years,
Oh deep sleep dreaming hurry up and come,
I think you are here because my body is all numb,
How did this happen?
I have gone so low,
My time is up, its time to go.
Sorry i couldn't be better, if I was I would stay,
Good bye my love,
until we meet again,
I cant wait for that day