The things we love the most, the things we hold dearest and nearest to us.... are often the things we take for granted the most. When you always have, someone, or something, everyday, every hour, even every minute of your life, you forget to appreciate them or it. Not in a rude or selfish sort of way, but you might forget what life was like without it, or in this case them. For instance, talking to the same person, every night, for a long period of time,can get you used to having that person around, and having that person to talk to. Well what happens when one night, that someone doesn't have a phone, or doesn't have a way of talking to you? Can you handle it? Will you be able to fall asleep? Will you get sad and lonely? Even though you'll see them tomorrow in school. And even though it will only be less then 24 hours before you next see them or talk to them, of course your sad. And as stupid as it sounds, as obsessive as it sounds, its true. Your hurt and your lost and you dint know what to do because your used to having that person to talk to. So instead of talking to them on the phone that night, your thinking to yourself all night. And your mind wanders, and thinks, and you stray into a thought pool that isn't exactly calming or comforting. And you think to yourself... oh my god... if its this bad right now, what would it be like if he (or she) was gone... for good. And it scares you to death because hey, yeah you know how much that person means to you, and you already knew you'd die without them, but just that one night without them makes you realize how much you truly rely on this person. And the more you think about it, the more you wish you could talk to this person, because you see that all this time, you never really told them, and explained to them, how they made you feel, and how much they did for you, just by talking to you, and loving you, everyday, and every night. But you cant, and your so lost, and you dint know what to do because you need them so bad right now, and you want to hear their voice right now, but you just cant. And in the end the horror in your mind is slightly relaxed when you remember that you'll see them tomorrow, and it will be the start of a new feeling, and a new chapter in your heart because, thats just what it is, another page you've opened up in your heart for that one person who is there for you the most, and who you love the very most. And you just cant wait for tomorrow, when you can tell them just how you feel, and just what you've learned... because after all... its only one night.. you'll see them tomorrow, but what about, the people who go to bed, with that one person in mind, and wake up to find out, that, that exact person, is gone, forever. How lost will they be, when they aren't given the chance... to say what they feel and how they feel, about that person. So when you cant talk to that special person, don't be mad, or sad, be glad, because you've learned by now to always tell them how you feel, and how they make you feel, in case today, doesn't come with a tomorrow for you, and that someone.
~* To all the people, who didn't get their happy ending*~
~*In memory of Sean E. Harrington Jr.*~
October 26, 2005
