Its all my fault

I never thought life could get worse,
but it it did...
it got worse the day my auntie died,
i will never forgive my self for that day...

people told me it was not my fault,
but how could they say that, they weren't there...
i watched u faid away,
i didn't realize that that would be your last day..

i never got to hold your hand,
i never got to say that i loved u..
and that although your not here today still living your life i hope u know that i will always love u...

all i remember from that day,
was u lying on the lounge room floor..
u couldn't move,
all the tubes in u n needles all around...

they tried for 80 mins,
but i guess u knew Ur time was up...
i want so much for u to come back,
cos i need u here auntie jean...

u were so helpless that day,
Ur spirt had left.. it had gone..
everyday i think of u..

everyday i talk to u from up above,
and as the days go on i will always blame myself...
because if i had done something different that day,
u would still be here to this day...
I LOVE YOU GRAN!!!