I Used To

I used to feel so safe
When I could stare out
And see your eyes
Slowly and magically,
Falling upon my own
I used to feel that safety

I used to feel innocent
As if I sang, danced, laughed
Like a child
With no worries on my mind
But whether or not
I’ll be first down that slide
I long for that innocence

I used to know
I knew the feeling of being loved
To be held in arms that loved me
I knew how to smile
To love, to laugh, to speak
Without my voice shaking
Because I’m frightened
Without myself
Choking on simple words
I knew how it felt

I used to feel happy
When I could look back
And my only troubles
Are finding ways to make others smile
To wipe that tear from a strangers eyes
Instead of shedding a tear from mine
I felt what if feels like
To be happy

I used to….