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Sometimes i just feel like
A third wheel on your bike
I just get in the way
Cuz i got nowhere 2 stay
There's no clique i belong 2
No friends cuz I'm not u
I act like myself, see
4 that u all don't like me
2 u all, I'm just a white guy
Every "hi",is soon followed wit good bye
I spend my time alone
Cuz I'm always on my own
No one can help me
Cuz I'm mentally not healthy
Ive got an abandonment issue
Cuz my dad had left me at age 2
And no one will pay Reid
The respect that i feel i need
And its such an obligation
4 u 2 have a conversation
Wit me, yes I'm annoying
Ya see, I'm deploying
These tactics, that r destroying me, inside
I no longer, have pride
My true self i feel i, must hide
Cuz i know u all wouldn't, like him
If the world were Marshal Mathers, then i would b Kim
I'm the jester in your court
A fool of the worst sort
I'm such a naive guy
Cuz no matter how u treat me, ill still b ya friend, y?
Cuz good friends, i don't have any
But worst enemies i have many
People just love 2, make fun of my life style
Which i run accordingly, 2 error and trial
I am so definitely not, in a state of denial
I'm just tired of all the crap, wanna break 4 a while
I just wanna stand up, on my own 2 feet and walk
Cuz I'm tired of all the crap that i constantly talk
And lately Ive been writing like I'm mad inspired
Like I'm a freelance journalist, who has just gotten fired
And he wants 2 prove that, he's still got the skills
That he can do what he does best, now only 4 thrills
But this ain't a skill, this just a hobby of mine
I write this crap down, when stuff get out of line
Or an event happens that leave a big mark
Thats y my stuff always seem gloomy n dark
And its happened so often, that its all i have known
If i told u how often, your mind might b blown
Or maybe it wouldn't, cuz my life ain't the worst
I just feel as if tho, its infinitely cursed
Cuz every good thing, that has ever come my way
Was extremely short lived, and taken one day
But i deal wit it all, cuz i have no other choice
The life that i live, is not at the will of my voice
But i cant just allow, my life 2 stop on a dime
So ill promise 2 complain less, n live life one day at a time