My Old Cure Of Letting All The Pain Go

"drip drip"

is the water hitting the bath

everything seems to stop

there's black under my eyes

from my mascara running

as i put my arm in the bath

the water turns redish

the blood slowly washes away

then the thought that made me do it comes back

i start crying uncontrollably

i pick up the razor blade

i am shaking of disgust

but, i do it anyways

"slice, slice"

i start cutting and i can't stop

when i finally calm down

i hide the razorblade

bandage myself up

and continue on as if nothing hurt me

some say i am emotional

i must agree

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this is my way to let go of all the pain

that's trapped inside of me

Pain, Sorrow

two words thta describe me

i sit in my room by myself

tears in my eyes

i walk around pretending to be happy

all it makes me feel is numb

you hardly know who i am,

or what i meant

i feel like somethings missing

i know what it is now...

it's me