I Want To Do Better

I was never a good student
I never really cared about grades
Till 6th grade
Last year, I wasn't so smart
I did okay.
But I didn't like it
I wanted to do good
I wanted to be a student
That a teacher is proud to teach.
I wanted to be labeled smart
Not stupid
Not dense
Just smart.
I thought 8th grade's my chance
I can do good
I can be smart
As long as I put my heart to it
I worked hard
And it paid off
I was doing great
Teachers were talking
About how much I have improved
I was #1...
But it didn't last long.
I lost my fresh mind
Where I stored information
Things at home
Cracked my streak
My good luck charms
Broke into pieces
The house is so noisy
The stess is just piling
I dropped to 2nd
And I don't like it one bit
I feel so stupid
Making silly mistakes
I know I can do better
but why am I not?
All I wanted was to do good
Just this year
I wanted to end off strong
But I'm losing hope
No matter how hard I try
I just can't concentrate
I always space off
Going into my own world
I wish I can do better.
I know I can
Just my stupid brain
Is being so stubborn
i want to do good
Just this year
I wanted to end off strong
End off with a good rep.
But like I always say
I never get my ways
So why keep trying?