This isnt really a poem. its more of an article, or a statement i guess.
"Life without you isn't life, Life without you is simply just existing" I believe every girl has or will have felt this way at some point in their life, Unfortunately,I have already. He was what got me from day to day, he made breathing easy, and smiling easier. But when you let someone have that much control over your happiness, they have just that much power to take it away. He can take a perfectly happy person, and for lack of a better word, destroy her life. and that he has. I've spent the past four years of my life falling in and out of "LoVe" with the same guy again and again. And as much as this doesn't seem to be a big deal to some people, it is to me. For the past four years, there hasn't been a day that I haven't thought him at least once. On a good day, I can get by without tearing up and before you go and judge me as a DrAma QuEen, hear me out. "It starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear". Every girl have heard this quote, and many have certainly applied it to their own experience. Now take that quote and apply it again, and again, and again. Take all the smiles, all the kisses, and ALL of the tears, and multiply it by an uncountable number. Like so many people know, unrequited love can be the hardest love to deal with. You can put so much of yourself into one person without ever really getting anything in return. But worst of all, has to be when you put so much of yourself into someone that returns the feelings to you...and...to just about EVERY other girl on the face of the earth, and on top of that, only when he Is in the mood to. So again, why go back to someone you know you have a higher odd of never working out with? Well for the same reason people hang out with friends, go out for ice cream, or go out on a shopping spree!!! He makes me happy. Everyone wants to be happy. We all WANT a sincere smile, and that's what I want. He honestly makes me the happiest, regardless of all the crap he has put me though. Regardless, of all the tears I have cried, I'd still go back to him in a heartbeat. Yea, maybe us girls do put ourselves through more pain than necessary, but in the end, is it worth it to you? Are you willing to do what it takes to have someone you care about strongly in you life? If yea, then go for it, who the hell cares if people think you're an idiot for talking to him again. But on the other hand, look at it this way,are you wasting yourself? Are you jading yourself more than he already has? Are you giving up other opportunities to a love you deserve because your to busy crying over a love you will never have? And when it seems like no one else is for you, or no one else will measure up...Think about this... If this guy is THE GUY, the one that makes you smile, makes your knees weak, and shortens your breath, and makes your heart skip beats, then why are you crying and why is he unfazed by you inability to love anyone but him? I often wonder what it is about this kid that has got me so wound up, why cant I just up and leave? I've done it time and time again to guys that I have so called "loved" before, never looking back. But when it comes to this kid, I cant seem to ever let him go, Maybe I don't want to though, who knows.
I know there are so many girls out there that feel the same way. and i just feel like they should know they arent alone.
