Dieing Inside..

by My Life Will Never Be The Same   May 24, 2006


This is really long but please take the time to read it..this is how i have felt today...thanks everyone..
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I'm sitting in my room,
Thinking about so many things.
I don't know how to do this,
Fight all of these feelings.

I'm mad and hurt,
I don't want to lose the one I love.
I can't stop loving him,
Even though he's not from up above.

Hurting so much,
I just want to die.
At least if I'm dead,
No tears will come from these eyes.

Dieing inside,
Slowly falling apart.
Having bad feelings,
Will they ever depart?

Will everything always be wrong?
Why can't anything be right?
Why do I lay in bed and cry,
While holding my pillow tight.

Dieing inside,
But it's OK,
Because nobody cares,
I don't want to face another day.

Every things messed up,
For once I want it all to be all right.
I don't want to sit back and,
Have this constant battle and fight.

I'm tired of hurting,
Having tears fall.
Just when I think every things OK,
I open my eyes and realize I'm losing it all.

My family's falling apart,
My one true love has to go.
I can't even talk to him,
Everyone thinks my feelings will just not show.

But I can't ignore these feelings,
When they're so strong.
Just for once I want something to be right,
Not constantly and always wrong.

Just when I start to see the light,
Darkness gets thrown in my path.
I can't fight this battle,
You sit back and do the math.

Add up all the pain I feel,
With the tears I cry.
They will equal the reason,
Why I just want to die.

Dieing inside slowly,
But does anyone care?
I don't want to feel these feelings,
I don't want to share.

Share my pain,
It's becoming so much.
I don't want everyone to worry,
I don't want them to be crushed.

I just want to leave,
Because then no one has to worry about me.
No one will have to wonder if I'm OK,
They can just forget the "poor little me".

Dieing inside,
I want to say goodbye.
I want my family happy,
No more tears from these eyes..

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  • 15 years ago

    by pLeASeTakEMyHeArT

    Very very good!!!!! VERY TOUCHING TO READ!!!!

  • 17 years ago

    by heather

    Aww even tho i dont know you i care! i care about everyone. i really do. i enjoyed this poem because sadly..i often feel this xact way home gurl. way to put how u feel into words. i loved it so much. keep it up but dont be sad cuz i hope everything will turn out okay. ;)

  • 17 years ago

    by Angel Of Death

    Awww! i love this poem, its so sad. its heaps well written! 5/5 oh and thanks for commenting my poem 2!
    xx

  • 17 years ago

    by BECCA lessTHANthree

    Wow.. this is soo sad.. but good i like it nicejob!!

  • 17 years ago

    by heather

    You have a gift for writing and i love the way you say how you feel. i hate for people to feel like this...it kills me because ive felt that way before. you have to have faith...dont do something you might regret later because once u die...ull look back and the only thing u can do is wish you could go back and comfort every person who has cared for you...again i kno i dont know you but its the truth..ive gone through a whole lot and i hope you understand what im saying...peace out!

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