Why do I do this to myself
I don't blame you for hurting me
I'm the one thats stupid enough to trust you
I Can't believe I forgave you again sometimes
Sure you say that you won't hurt me
And You promise that your not lying
But who are you kidding
You've done it before,
I'm sure you can do it again
And You say your not gonna break my heart
Well at least your not lying there
You've broken my heart so much all it is is dust,
I don't think it could possibly break anymore
Because of you my parents don't trust me
And my best friend hates me
Your worth a lot, but are you worth this much
I know she'll always be there for me...
But I don't know if you will
I know that you've cheated many times before
And you cry and say sorry
And I know it was months ago,
But some days it seems like it was only yesterday
It's hard to tell if your being truthful
One minute I think I can trust you
The next I hear bullshit about you messing with me
What the hell is up with that
If you really love me
You have a shitty way of showing it sometimes
And I can't tell you this to your face
Cause I'm afraid you'll get mad
You scare me when your mad
Sometimes when I think about all the shit you've done
I just can't stand myself
I hate how I feel about you
I hate how I believe you no matter what
And I hate that I fall for your lies
Okay, I know You don't lie that much now
But you have before, and I fell for it
Maybe You've just gotten better at it
Or Maybe I've just gotten more blind
And I hate how it seems like I give up everything
While you sit back and give up nothing
God knows all the stuff I've given up to have you
Sometimes I think I deserve better than you
I know my friends think that
I know some think I'm stupid
Because I can't see through your mask
And I hate worrying about you all the time
What your doing, Where you are, Who your with
But what I Hate Most of all
Is How I can't Get Over You
No Matter How Hard, Or How Long I Try
Someone needs to save me
Cause I'm dying for you a little everyday
I'm afraid I'll never be free from you
