Dont eat

I am so f u c k i n g stupid, why did i eat at all
I was going so good, until that fall
Where hunger hits and nothing can stop you
You stuff your face, then hate yourself and ball

I hate myself so f u c k i n g much
Why can't i be like all my friends
I start to think i might be just fine
Until i see her and know thats a lie

I swear to God I'll never eat again
I am making this promise to all
If I'm ever to be happy
I will starve until I'm normal

Maybe thats why he doesn't like me
I'm just not good enough
Every time i now go to eat
I will make one cut

And every cut will remind me of the pain
The pain of not feeling beautiful
So then i wont have a need to eat
And all those kilos will fall

Then I'll be beautiful to you and me
And i won't need to cry
Then maybe i might make it
And i won't have to die