So much for your lies

You told me not to worry,
You told me you do not,
Cut yourself anymore,
I really thought you stopped.

But I guess I’m too gullible,
I believe everything you say,
“Tell Maria there are aliens,
She’ll believe it anyway”.

I know you’re pi**ed off,
You hear what they say.
But why does it matter,
What those bi**hes say anyway.

I saw you listen to them,
I saw your face,
You ran into the school,
And kept picking up the pace.

You went in the bathroom,
With some metal thing,
I was almost sure,
That you were cutting.

I asked what you were doing,
Though I already knew.
I’m not sure you get the message,
I’m worried about you!

I asked you again,
You said “nothing,”
I asked you for the truth,
You asked me to leave.

I came a few minutes later,
Pretending to fix my hair,
But really, I was scared,
Just to leave you there.

You flushed and came out,
Clutching your arm, you smiled,
I looked at you in disbelief,
And I left after a while.

I know I shouldn’t pretend,
That everything is normal,
Because deep inside,
I feel really horrible.

I shouldn’t let you cut,
And let you get away,
With trying to hurt yourself,
But I don’t know what to say.

And what difference does it make,
You don’t listen to what I say,
If I wasn’t trying to help you,
You’d be happier that way.