Hurting

The words I have held so long in my heart
Have broken free at last
But now I want to take them back,
I want to turn back the time,
Because these words have hurt you so bad

I shouldn't have shouted at you
I shouldn't have said those words
I shouldn't have been so tense
But even a stone can break under pressure
And maybe my heart broke too

I wanted you to understand
This hurt I am carrying in my heart
Because after all, we are family
But I guess you expected me to be strong
To take it cool when so many things have changed

My life isn't picture perfect
My life isn't a well-written script
That people would understand
I guess I shouldn't have pushed it too far
And hoped you'd understand
When the rest of the world did not

I am sorry that I am not strong enough
To take this battle as a part of life
I am sorry that I can't forget this pain
Hurting so bad in my heart
I am sorry for all these mistakes
I am sorry I am not your perfect girl