Endless Circle

Why does it sometimes be so hard,
why are we feeling lonely, sad,
where is my defense, where my guard;
why am I close of getting mad.

I see the sun, but not for long,
I see the darkness above me,
what was inside of me has gone.
And I can only agree.

I have no guidance, no instructions book,
no one who help me on my way,
I don't know what to do, what it took,
I don't know where to look or what to say.

It starts raining where I stand,
after all you are beside,
the pay for the energy we've spend,
the pay for every tear we've cried.

So many argues, so often in a conflict,
and my heart is decaying under it,
stopped to count how often I could not predict.
Equal to this all I was torn with it.

Feeling sorrow, feeling pain,
nothing alleviate this state of mine,
it will not fade, but will remain.
An endless circle of my life.