I am going to die (because of You)

My hate for myself is unexplainable
my life is falling apart
i have have hurt so many people
i have a shattered torn up heart

all memories of happiness
are quickly fading away
love of the good times
is replaced with pain each day

pain is the law i live under
it holds its standards high
my life is in it last days
and i cant wait to say goodbye

I'm holding the knife
the thoughts in my head
I'm cutting my wrists
soon I'll to be dead