Confessions of an angel

Confessions of an angel

I am afraid to fall and cry my words away

I am afraid to fail and weep before your eyes

I am afraid to lose my only strength that keeps me alive

I am afraid to die and fade to dust

I am afraid to live and dream a life

I am afraid to sin and lie to God

I am afraid to love and have to bleed

I am afraid to speak when no one hears

I am afraid to fly with broken wings

I am afraid to breathe the venom of a bitter disbelief

I am afraid to falter into sweet false hope

I am afraid to see the light when I belong into the dark

I am afraid to whisper death into the ears of a child

I am afraid to tell the truth just for fear to know a lie

I am afraid to drown and sink into the vast blue sky

I am afraid to look upon the stars and see my own mistakes

I am afraid to bring a charming soul into my shattered heart

I am afraid to kiss the night away and know you will never see another day

I am afraid to touch the reality of my lifeless motivation

I am afraid to forget all that I am when there is nothing left

I am afraid to fight only to collapse into the meaning of this life

I am afraid to find myself deprived from all my thoughts

I am afraid to struggle and vow against my will

I am afraid to seek words to make my demons run

I am afraid to show my weakness when even my strengths have flaws

I am afraid to spread my wings and take you in my arms

I am afraid to be your pain when you cant feel

I am afraid to be your eyes when you cant see

I am afraid to be your voice in times of silence

I am afraid to be your agony and be your guide

I am afraid to be your light, yet I hate to be your darkness

I am afraid to be deceived by everything I was ever taught

I am afraid to be defeated by the solemn warriors of my maker

I am afraid to be rejected by the holy gates of heaven

But there I see a light at the end of this cold unconscious road

There exists a microscopic hope in my vast doomed universe

It is you and this fallen angel who is about to break apart

For it is only when I look into your sweet blue eyes and through the depths of time that I find a reason to keep alive

For I am your guardian angel the one and only who swore to protect you till the end of time

Because I am your everlasting soul, and that my dear beloved child, I am not afraid