Sometimes i wonder

Sometimes i wonder
if i am just a burden
one of many lives
that is undeserving

sometimes i wonder
if they really love me
or am i just a demon
they wish they couldnt see

sometimes i wonder
if they'd catch me if i fell
would they lift me up to heaven
or push me further down to hell

sometimes i wonder
if im dreaming or awake
if this is really happening
or is it just fake

sometimes i wonder
why i am so low
will i stay like this forever?
or will the seed of content grow...

i just dont know...