Why?

Why can't it all go back to the way it was?
Why can't it all be the same?
Why did i say all those horrible things that i did not mean?
Why did i f**k it up so bad?
Why can't he come back?
Why can't Happiness rule over me again?
Why must i always be sad?
Why must i pretend?
Why can't it all come naturally to me?
Why must school be hard?
Why can't it be all fun and games again?
Why must it be this way?
Why must i keep pretending?
Why do i get called Pathetic or Copy Cat when the only person i am trying and wanting to be is me?
why can't i tell people things?
Why can't i trust?
Why can't honesty happen?
Why?