Oh I wish

I wish I had a girl
One to raise my heart beat
oh my beautiful pearl
what makes you so unique
wishes that cloud my dome
as much as it could crush my throan
how much I wish I'd never known
that love itsself I'll never own
tears from my heart that drench my blood
make my body feel as such a grudge
once you have it you cannot deny
why do the girls seem to follow the lie
would they rather have that kind of guy
nobody sees me
they do not pick me and I dont know why
but its in my head
the ones I care for could care less
Why?