The way she feels

Sitting here like every other night, she realises what her lifes become, if only she could see him for a minute, if only it was a second, it would kiss away all of her problems. She could get lost into his eyes and everything would be alright. She could walk on water, and he would catch her if she fell, and everything would be alright. Shes so overwhelmed by emotions, shes drowning in the waves, there getting harder to tread. She imagines what it would have been like without him, or if he was there right now. How things would be different, just lying in his arms not saying a word. They would stare at the stars, and say how their life resembled them. A brightness in each others life, never did it burn out. But now shes dying in pain, the blood shattered in side, its gone, and all she has left are the memories of him and her, and all of their lives. The way he smiled the way he spoke, the way he smelt, the intricate path the tears fell down on his face, the way he embraced her when she needed him most.The way he would listen and she would feel it in his voice. The long conversations they would have about nothing, but they still left feeling like they were the best. But most of all she misses his friendship she could always count on him through thick and thin for him to be there for her. The walls in her life are closing in, shes always looking out from the inside, never part of the group, after all she just wants him. Is this her life, it happened so fast but she cant turn it round. She just wants to face the fear but not feel scared .