Im ok....

What is it?
Nothing I say
Something’s wrong
No
Ok

alone crying hurting
Waiting dying
I cant stand it any more
Someone hand me a gun

All has been lost
memories faded
People have changed

No im here alone
Cause every one hates me

Why am I different I ask myself..
Why me
Why does life have to be hard for me…

Its not just me,
Ya I no..
But still why is there pain

What did I do..
Im sorry I cant be perfect
Im sorry I cant be everything you want

There’s nothing left for me now…

Iv got to run away from my fears
And hide away from my tears

All this pain
All this hatred toward myself
Every thing.. It all has to stop

Iv got to get out
Of everything
This place
This depression

Im stuck
I cant be free
For I am just another troubled teen

Everything is lost now
No feelings left in side
Have I truly died?

Please don’t let this be a lie
A good dream that’s what it will be

All the pressure
Everything’s adding up
I cant move
I cant breath with all this pain inside of me

I am life less
But I still move
How is it that im still here

Why is it im still here
I haven’t gone..
No not yet

All these little voices wont leave my head
Kill yourself
You have no point to live
Everything’s so tempting me

As I scream with pain
A razor blade in one hand
Ready to take it all away

As its cold thin blade touches my skin
I suddenly stop
And remember everything..

There’s nothing worth living
Why am I here
Im just a stupid little girl
Thinking all my pains will go away

A foolish little child
A foolish little girl
Just another outcast
Who can do nothing good

When I truly try to take it away
Memories try to stop me
Why do I live
Why do I suffer
This life is killing me

I am already dead…