STOP the CUTTING!

How do you stop the cutting
for I don't want my son to see,
I want to be able to go to the beach.

Watching my 10 month old son
grow up so fast, Memories Of the past still lingerer near.

Having a hard time adjusting too
new things, will I ever give up the cutting? What is my son going to say when he See's the scars?

Feeling like you're never loved But then yet you have the greatest boyfriend in the world. How did that come about its almost been 3 years, and we're still strong to this day. But yet again, my cutting gets in the way.

Its an adrenalin rush for me, I gotta see the blood run free. How am I supposed to get rid of this Argonne and live life in peace?

Some days I just get so down, I don't even want to wake up and face another day. But how I do it I'm not really sure, cause the thoughts of suicide aren't far behind. Hiding the pain, that just gets in the way. Feeling so afraid that people might find out one day, Crying almost every night, looking at my wrists..another slit, another scar, another cry and I don't know why.

Just give it up already, I've gotta stop, do it for my son, that's what I say...But for some reason I'm freakin' mental and I can't quit for anything the depression always stays.