Im Afraid (im proud of this one--true story)

I'm Afraid to say I hate you,
Because deep inside I feel,
You are the one who saved me,
The one who made it real.

I'm afraid to say I love you,
Because that is also not true,
Your the one who hurts me,
I'm scared because of you.

I'm afraid to say its over,
Because deep inside I fear,
Your the one who broke me down,
You reduced me to tears.

I'm afraid to say don't hurt me,
Because it will make the pain more,
And i will end up once again,
Begging 'forgive' upon stone floor.

I am so afraid of you,
The cold words that escape your lips,
You every breath your voice,
My neck versus your fingertips.

I'm so afraid of falling,
I cant stand up on my own two feet,
I'm staring at the doorway,
Until your fist, my face they meet.