Suicidal thoughts

Everyday i get worse
everyday the thought of suicide crosses my mind
everyday i resist it
everyday the impulse is stronger

all the time i am thinking of others
but where is someone who can help me.

i never used to ask for help but now i am desperate
i used to be able to handle everything and everyone Else's problems
now i feel 1000 miles under the sea in the dark suffocating water.

all i ever wanted was to be was someone that my friends could count on.

in my time of need they all turned their backs on me now as they float i drown. maybe it is time life ended on my half, its not like they care that much

if they cared they wouldn't hurt me so.