Why do u hate this me

I thought i was a normal person
until my friends started treating me differently

i found out that i was depressed
that people only wanted to know what was wrong with me so that they can back stab me to make me feel even worse

they look down upon me like they are better than me but they have back stabbed me which is worse than being me in my current state

if u want to kill me i will let u.
its not like i have any other purpose than trying to help people out of bad situations and giving them advice.