Shadow

I'm living in the shadow of my fears
I'm not suppose to,
but I do anyway,
in this cold shadow,
haunts me my future,
I know I must,
come out and feel,
the warmth of the sun,
but,
I don't want to,
or,
maybe,
inside,
I really want to,
but I just don't know it yet,
what will the future hold,
and will that future hold me?
am I doomed,
as I step out of the shadow,
another one is cast upon me,
I must get rid of this shadow,
its imperative,
I must be happy,
shouldn't I?
lifestyle in this shadow is dreadful,
and then,
I wonder,
what is this shadow?
why is it trapping me in its cold winds
how can I get around it,
when will i be free from its grasp
Until, I realized, that the object, casting this shadow, keeping me from, eternal happiness, and my warm future, is, ME.