Still Of The Night

In the still of the night
she cries the darkest tears
knowing that soon all the pain will end
and she won't have to remember those horrible years
as she sits up in bed and loses the grip on her teddy bear,
she prays out loud, asking for courage
and just enough strength to get through another day
she knows nothing will ever be the same, and she screams out loud,
"Why Does it have to be me?"
she gets up and walks around and sees all the things that used to make her happy.
and she just can't control herself anymore and has a raging fit
as she knocks everything to the floor she cries.
falling to her knees she doesn't understand how this is happening.
a girl that once knew who she was is now UN-defined
she grabs the bottle of pills and pops a few, still unsatisfied she takes a few more.
crying harder with every breath she takes, she can't Handel it anymore
she pops a few more realizing life's not worth living anymore.
and she walked into the bathroom and couldn't even look at herself anymore.
when she finally does look at herself in the mirror she stares.
mascara running down her red tear stained face.
she punches the mirror.
she can still see herself as the pieces fall to the ground,
standing there for a minute she knows what needs to be done.
she grabs at a piece of glass and decides to risk it all.
she takes a deep breath and exhales as she slices,
bloods pouring from her wrists and shes getting lightheaded,
the pills are kicking in and she falls to the ground.
crawling back to her room she leaves a line of blood.
she grabs that teddy bear and squeezes tight.
and in the still of the night with mascara running down her face she says Goodbye to those Horrible years.