Feel Like This

I didnt know this would happen
I never felt that way before
Like all the sadness had washed away
and I would never feel it anymore.

I dont see how you could say you love me
when you felt those scars along my arms
or when you saw me fall apart and silently cry
and succumb to my self-harm

You watched me drown my heart in alcohol
shred my skin with razor\'s edge
insert needles and inhale toxins
and stand on a building\'s ledge

Yet you still said you loved me
and held me tight while I cried
My heart said it was what I needed
but my mind had known you lied

I sobered up for you
I tried to start my life again.
Then you fell into my old ways
battling soreness held within

I tried to help you up
but I fell down there too
Stuck inside the addiction\'s world
But forever I\'d stay with you.

Once again I was wrong
You tried to take your life away
You were taken far that time
I wouldnt see you another day

Now we\'re both lying broken
scarred, and torn to pieces
Yet I hope one day I will see you again
long after my heatbeat ceases

I didnt know this would happen
I never felt that way before
Like all the sadness had washed away
and I would never feel it anymore....