Loss of 1st Love

I cant get u out of my head
I'm turning red
Cuz i cant get 2 sleep in my own bed
Its OK, ill be alright
But I'm not yet cuz I'm still uptight,
tossing n turning all night
Thinking bout how much i loved u
And what a fool i was 4 everything i did do
But its OK, its all over
I'm finally sober
I'm no longer drunk wit my affection 4 u
My punishments over, Ive paid all my dues
So at last u, can be rested assured
I'm no longer your love slave, I'm free as a bird
Free 2 move forward, and move on wit my life
Even tho it means you'll never get 2 b my wife
And love n support me 4ever and ever
Id have done any thing 4 u so long as we were 2gether
But u never knew that did u, 2 busy 2 realize
How much i loved u, what a surprise
But not any more
Ive finally opened my eyes
And wit my new found awareness, Ive come 2 a cross road
Do i hate u 4ever, or love u in code
I don't really think i can make that decision alone
Should i always hide my feelings, or let them b shown
But 4 now, ill leave it all in the past
Ur love was one and only, but it wont b the last
And when the time comes, I'm sure ill find someone new
Ill just never love that someone the same way i loved u!!!!