Mixed Emotions

He's all I think about
He's all I want
He's there every time I close my eyes
Every time I open them, he's not

What have I done to make him hate me
Why isn't he there for me, Why doesn't he care
What have I done to make him love me
Why is he always there, Why dose he care

My life is full of mixed emotions
My life is full of lies
My days are full of happiness
My nights are full of silent cries

When dose it come to that point,
When crying no longer help?
When dose it come to that point,
When a blade is called to help?

He said he loved me
He said he cared
He said he hates me
I said I no longer care

That's when you hear the gun shot
That's when you see the blood
That's when you hear the splash
That's when you know the deed in done

My life was full of mixed emotions
My life was full of sadness
My life was full of silent tears
My life was full of loneliness

That's when I noticed
I was feeling
mixed
emotions