I wish

I wish I could tell her I hate her amd that I dont think about
her every night, I wish I could tell her to stay out of my life but
if I said that none of it would be right.
Cause I do, I want her in my life, right by myside every step
of the way. When I get married, when I have kids but not if she
is living the way she is.
I wish I could tell her not to be in and out of my life, to be in
it or not. I wish I could tell her to look around and she all the
good she has got.
A big family with a bunch of kids, 5 girls, 1 boy and a soon to
be new born son. If this was a jackpot of love she would've won.
I wish she would have listened to every word I said, from the
beginning to the end none of them stuck in her head.
I wish she would quit crack and put up a fight cause than maybe
I would have some what of a mother and I'd still get to see my brother.
but its too late for that cause he's gone and you are rarley around. You're
breaking me up and I am ready to hit the ground.
Im ready to give up on you mom and quit tryin, I dont do drugs like you
but my insides are sure dy n.
I let you back in my life left and right, you may not realize it but you hurt
me day and night.
This is your last chance mom, I cant let you back, I know its a harsh way
to say it and a mean way to act.
I dont think I ever want to see you again. You use to be a mom and even
a friend.
Its over now, I'm sure I can make it without you I just dont know how.

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