Confused

In so many ways I care about you
but loving you is something I don't feel or do
I'm with you for some reason or another
but a lot of times I think about being with someone other.

I don't want to hurt you or break your heart
I promised you that from the very start
everyday I feel guilty about living this lie
but for so many reasons I don't want to say goodbye.

Being with you just doesn't feel right
I see you only as a friend and it's what I try to fight
I want to make you happy but it just seems so unreal
because I don't want to be with you like that, it's just the way I feel.

It's stressing me out, not feeling the way you think I do
when you tell me you love me, I lie and say I love you to
I don't mean to do this, I just don't know where to start
how do I tell you that I want it to be over, without breaking your heart?

It's taring me apart, what I'm doing to you
and I'm so very sorry but I just don't know what to do
I'm not right for you and you're not right for me
I wish I knew how to explain this so you would somehow try to see.

You lost so much in your life and that's where I stop
because I don't want you to feel that somehow I forgot
you mean so much to me but only as a friend
a friendship that I hope in my mind, won't have to ever end.

Please forgive me for the way I feel
I tried my best to make it more real
but it never happened and I'm in bind
loving you, is something I try so hard to find.

**Votes and Comments Welcomed**
Thanks a bunch, Jen