I close my eyes and cover my ears...I hurt but pretend that no one can tell. I don't want to see the expression on your face...I don't want your money...I don't want anything but your understanding and for you to love me for who I am. I don't want to hear how much you can criticize me....all I want is for you to realize that I can't change what I feel in my heart. I don't understand why I have to spend my time trying to keep my life from falling apart...you don't know how hard it is to keep this all locked up inside...and you don't know how it feels to let each day pass as a lie. You don't see the tears streaming at night...you don't hear my silent screams...you don't see my secret lies....maybe you should just accept who I am and the way I feel...why can't you just understand? Why is the one thing I want the most, something you consider so wrong?? Why is the thing you disagree with so much what I've been wanting for so long? A life of my own. You are always trying to control me...trying to live my life for me....you may not think it...but I can't do anything with my life until you let me go....but you think I'll end up getting hurt...but this isn't your heart...your heart that's screaming...it's mine. You make me feel so small....I can never do anything right....you do this to me everyday....but then you wonder why I can't sleep at night....
