-*- this isn't the best poem but i really dont care.. i'd like it if you read it and let me know what you think about it.thanx -*-
I've tried so hard to just let it all go but nothing is working nothing at all..
they are always judging me on what i do wrong but I'm not perfect not there at all. they say I'm just a girl who is looking for attention attention and who wants people to feel bad for her but thats not true they don't know at all. they have no idea of all the crap i go through of all the things going on. they know nothing about me and they think they always know it all.
they might think they know me but they only know the fake me, cuz when I'm around others i try to not let it get to me. but once in a while it will all slips out and thats when they think I'm a pitiful cry out.
yeah so i have a few problems and yeah i might cut but what else is there to do when everyone else says am a fool.
i have no problem with saying how i feel but i freeze up when people try to make it a big deal. they don't know it all and they don't have a clue, and for them to judge me, i just want to die.
i always try to ignore it and let it all go but its really hard to sit there and hear and I'll tell you why.
they throw thing at me and think that it funny, they think I'm a freak and a person thats not ready. they tell things that tare my heart in to, thats one of the reasons i think I'm a fool. i shouldn't let it get to me and i don't know why i cry, there are day i just wish i could die. hes the only one that ever stick up for me and theres day i wonder why.. but i couldn't live without him and if he left I'm pretty sure i would die.
i would never talk to people and i would cut the hell out of my wrist. i would fall apart even more then i am now and that would be it i would be done, I'm so sick of this s#!t i cant handle it anymore i wish it was over i really want to last. i don't wanna be a failure i hate not having any friends. i hate the things people say about me and i don't like being alone. i hate who i am and I'm gonna try to change i cant handle it any more, this is it my past is out the door.
