Now that i have lost you

(wrote this when i was 15)

a little piece of heaven ripped from my arms
nothing left to comfort me accept for reopened battle scars

tally up the marks
of how many mistakes i've ever made
time is fragile
eventually memories of people fade

forgetful is my mind
tender and loving is my heart
but granted i'll remember you
long after the goodbye part

just thinking back on your smile
and how you used to laugh
always brings tears to my eyes these days
that year went by so fast

in the end what was left
but a hug and a goodbye kiss
who could have predicted
that one day things would turn out as they did

if i could go back in time
i would go back to when we first met
if i had never seen you
it would save me much regret

we were star-crossed from the beginning
love sealed with a twisted fate
too early seen unknown
and known too late

if i made a promise now
it would be to never tell you how i truly feel
i'm sorry i bought my own illusion
that fantasies could be made real