To Redeem

Do you think I'm different?
Because of my views?
That fact that I hope
For immortal good news?

I try every second
To fight all the wrong
Feels like I'm singing
The same boring song

Clouded by Anger
Controlled by my Fear
Whenever I'm with you
I'm not really here

But I'm a survivor
I will stand again
Yet I admit I need you
To help tight the pain

I wish I knew why
You condemn my mistakes
You know that I'm crying
Thousands of Lakes

You teach me, you leave me
You hate that I'm back
I wish you would tell me
Why you want me to pack

I made my mistakes
That much is true
But is it really so bad
To have fallen for you?

I ask for forgiveness
Not for your heart
I guess never leaving
Was a bit of a start

Why can't you see
Where I'm coming from?
My parents still treat you
Like their second son

I told you my feelings
What I thought was right
Why must you condemn
Me from your sight?

Hear out my please
Take time to think
Try not to let
This heavy heart sink

That's all I'm asking
One final chance
Why want you spare
Just one single glance?

I write this as you
Sit just meters away
So close to my reach
But not close to stay.