Whats wrong with me

Purrging and cutting
this is all i know
nothing else around me matters
no one else will ever know
the pain i go threw
and my way of ease
this is a secret between me and me
my reason to spew and my reason to cut
is because i know ill never be good enough

no one can stop this
no one can help
its no use when i wont help myself

i want it to go away
i want to feel ok
i want to know whats wrong with me