Die to be with you.

I'm waiting for you to come home today. I'm waiting for you light to shine bright and show me the way.. I'm waiting to hear your calming voice to tell me its gonna be OK. And that I need to look on the brighter sides of each and everyday. But how can I be happy since you are not here? I cry some more and wipe away my tear. Why did you leave me? Your my dad.. thats not the way it should be. I need to here to watch me grow.. and teach me stuff that I don't know. You wont be there when I meet that special guy.. I just don't understand why you had to die. You left without a word said.. I just wish I was dead. I wish I could talk to you one last time.. then maybe I'd think twice about committing that crime. But not to show was you. Its already done theres nothing I can do.. I killed myself I'm no longer alive.. I just lay there dead.. no reason left to try.