Smiles and Tears part 1

by Izumi Nightroad   Jul 29, 2006


She smiles
She laughs
She is always there to lean on
She�¢??s the best in her class
People turn to her for advice
On what to do
They turn to her
For the answer
A math question here
And science question there
It all adds up
They�¢??re jealous of her
She has this great mind
She�¢??s smart and intelligent
They all think that she�¢??s one of the best
When people are depressed
They turn to her for advice on what to do
When they have a dilemma
They ask her
She�¢??s always there
With a smile
With a laugh
To bring another day
With a ray of sunshine
Her friends see her for who she is
But the guy she loves has no idea
She even exists
None of them have any idea
What she goes through everyday
They see her smile
They hear her laugh
They listen to her words of wisdom
They think about them and what they mean
And sometimes they even act upon them
She smiles
She laughs
She�¢??s always there
She looks at things with a ray of hope
Telling people that it�¢??s the state of mind
That they can pull through if they only concentrate
She believes she sounds stupid
But to them she�¢??s a trusted friend
They think they know everything about her
They think she�¢??s exactly who she appears.

She�¢??s there
She�¢??s crying
She�¢??s in pain
She want someone to help her
But no one will
She keeps everything to herself
Her own problems
No one knows of
She�¢??s afraid of being selfish
She feels guilty when she�¢??s happy
Yet her friends and family aren�¢??t
She tries to make them happy
She�¢??s always there for them to go to
She�¢??s in pain
She doesn�¢??t quite fit in
She�¢??s not the most intelligent
She doesn�¢??t look the best
She�¢??s got a beautiful heart
Yet some people don�¢??t see her for who she is
They can�¢??t tell who she is
Because she puts them before herself
And they will never know how much pain she is in
They will never know that when she has a problem
She always turns inward
And never to one of them
They always turn to her but none of them know
How much pain she is in
No one knows how much she hates life sometimes
How much she longs for someone to talk to her
To hold her
To kiss her
To care about her
And finally for her to be able to be happy
No one knows what kind of life she has
Where she�¢??d rather be
Who she�¢??d rather be
And what she�¢??d rather be
Sometimes she feels as if she doesn�¢??t know
Who she is
Where she is and
What she is
Sometimes she wonders to herself
What she�¢??s doing there
Why she�¢??s there and for what purpose she has there
She never knows
But she pulls through
No matter how hard something is
And she always picks herself up again
She�¢??s there for herself
She leans on herself
So that no one else has to deal with her problems
They can be happy
And not have anything on their minds
She blames herself for everything
Never knowing what else to do
She�¢??s afraid to hurt everyone
And that she�¢??s always done something wrong
She�¢??s always there
She�¢??s always crying out
Yet she smiles to make everyone else happy
She wants to help
She wants to be there
She wants you to be happy
She�¢??s crying in pain
When she goes home after school
Everyone sees a smile on her face
And happiness in her composure
What they don�¢??t realize is that she cries herself to sleep every night
That she�¢??s always trying to call out for help
That somehow
Someway
She�¢??s looking for someone to help her

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