Wondering

Lying here wondering,
What life has in store,
What is secretly awating,
Behind each and every door.

If it were tp be misery,
Or even to be pain,
I guess I'd shrug it off,
And try not to be so vein.

If it were to be happy,
Like heavens holy might,
I'd close my eyes and picture,
the world peaceful and delight.

But right ow I'm just wondering,
Thats all I can feel,
Hopeing that someday my good thoughts,
Would finally become real.