You'll wait until i close the door,
To throw me to the floor,
Than you'll go on top and do what you please,
As I cry "Get off of me,"
I'll push my hardest to try and make you stop,
But you know I'm helpless when your on top.
It's starting to hurt and all you do is laugh,
It feels like my body is splitting in half.
If I try to fight back i know it will get worse,
It's like a play we've continually rehearsed.
I know what happens when i break out of character,
When i no longer want to be an actor,
He will hit me hard in the face,
To put me back in my place.
Then, when he has had enough for the night,
And he sees the fear that has made my face turn white,
He'll hold me close and say he's sorry,
Then says how he loves me and tells me a story,
Of how he never meant to hurt me,
It all just went too far you see,
And i could never let him go,
For i love him so.
I know he hurts me bad,
But maybe because its me who makes him mad,
And i deserve what i get,
Every little bit.
But what did i do wrong,
That makes him act so strong?
I know it may not be right,
But I'm too afraid to put up a fight.
cause what if i do and i can't get away,
When he comes running my way.
What happens after he closes the door,
And there's no where to run anymore?
I will go back to playing my role,
As he slowly takes away my soul,
I have never stopped loving him,
And the feelings i have will never dim,
No matter what he has done,
No matter what he will do for fun.
Call me crazy call me stupid,
Blame me, him or even blame cupid
But love is the reason i stay,
And love is the reason he is this way...
TO ALL READERS:
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND PHYSICAL ABUSE ARE WRONG AND ABSURD...NO PERSON DESERVES TO BE TREATED THIS WAY AND IF IT'S HAPPENING TO YOU, TRUST ME, YOU HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE IT AND IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO THIS IS HAPPENING TO, YOU SHOULD BE THERE FOR THEM BECAUSE THEY REALLY NEED SOME GOOD FRIENDS!