Overcoming Darkness

As I lay in my bed one night
Bursting into tears
Seeking serenity
I see madness

I find myself hanged
With a rope around my neck
A knife in one hand
And a rose in the other

I'm lost, is this real?
Am I dreaming?
Then all of a sudden, I hear something
It was my own heart beating

My wrists are bleeding
Darkness is everywhere
And there is nobody around
It's just me, my knife and my rose

I close my eyes
Open them again
And though none of the above was real
I still live in darkness

Darkness is taking over my world
Leaving me alone to suffer
Trying to find the serenity that I've never felt
The serenity which I miss terribly

I close my eyes again
Images of my life flash right in front of my face
I'm back where I first started
With my knife and my rose

I stare at the knife, feel it with my fingers
I accidentally cut myself
My heart stops beating
The rose in my hand withered

As the rose withered between my hands
The rope around my neck got tighter
The knife is covered with blood
I thought it would be hard seeing my life come to its end

But it wasn't, not a bit, not at all
I saw myself dying
My death was planned
That image won't leave my inside

I saw myself hanged and choked
With my body bleeding
And I realized
My own death is the serenity I've been longing to find.